Soo.. yes. NuTang is the sheeot. :) I'm already liking it better than xanga... alot more. xanga's infected with aneorixics, and shallow girls who drool over emo kids. So, coming off of that note.... What to write about? ah. I know. So, I'm going to see Star Wars Episide III, and Kevin's unhappy about it. wtf MATE?! So, as much as he thinks I DON'T understand, I do. He always thinks I don't understand his reasons i do, It's him that doesn't understand. I know he wants to take me... but like, it's not really special with him, if anything, it'll only be special with my dad... I'm thinking about not going just so i can go with my dad... I saw all the other episodes with him, so i should watch it with him. Sometimes i need some time for me.. it's refreshing. not that i don't enjoy spending time with him, but like, i really like spending time with me too. I need some time alone to keep my sanity. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, doesn't it? I don't know. I don't even think that I'm going to go anymore, because now that i thought of it, I really want to go with him. lol. Mmmm redundancy. But, this whole entry hasn't gone to waste. I don't know if it's jitters about being in a committed relationship, (because i'm kinda freaking out becaue we're three months away from a year) or what, but I was talking to Emalie about it in Study hall... like, i LOVE this man... and I want to spend the rest of my life with him, but i want a relationship that isn't so... committed? Not like i want to see him less, or i want it less intense, I love being with him and i love how in love we are.. but i want to be able to hang out with my friends without him getting jealous, and without me feeling guilty about it. I want to be able to not feel bad abot not spending EVERY waking second of every hour possible with him. (don't get me wrong it's not like i don't want to see him) But i also want it to be a possibility to make or rekindle some friendships. Kelly doesn't even talk to me anymore, she's too busy with her life and her fabulous boyfriend... I'm not named Rich so I'm pretty much invisible, but that's alright. As of right now Chuck's really my only friend, sure I talkto people in school but it's not like I'm going to make an effort to hang out with him. I think the next person i know of that I'd like to hang out with would be Emalie, but i don't know. Both the time she was supposed to come over the missed school. So call it coincidence or insecurity (I'm hoping it's coincidence) that didn't happen. Chucks' the only person I'm really comfortable with telling my feelings to, and talking about my problems with. And I'm really freaking glad that they know each other now, and Kevin knows how good of a guy that Chuck is, and he's not all Mheeerr anymore, but i don't know, back to what i was saying before. Kevin's just really possessive, and it's like, it's soooooo hard to deal with sometimes. I try to do everything to keep him happy when it comes to that, but i do hae my limits. I'm not just going to saw screw him, but i am going to make him compromise on some things. but whatever. I've spilled my guts enough.... i don't know if i should make this thing private or not now.... oh well.. Lindsay

holy shit
I know! I was looking thru xanga one day and saw like...100 girls being anorexic and eating like...200 calories a day. thats fucked up shit.
» Manda103 on 2005-05-19 06:55:59

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